feeling isolated once again haha cos i am alone at home and ziyang is prob at the library and wonder where shiyun is... woke up late today for the first time but miraculously i was still just in time for my 8am lecture!! feeling crappy and yet lazy to start on work so i shall cook up a crappy argument on the importance of having different 'types of housemates. (this previous part was written at 945 pm)

Having housemates with different personalities and living habbits is deemed somewhat essential for a fulfilling lifestyle and i shall seek to prove that the benefits accrued from these differences outweigh the possible benefits that similarities may bring about. First, different living habits. Different living habits can maximize the utilities of each individual housemate. For example, you needn't worry about fighting over who to use the toilet first if u and ur housemates wake up at diff times.. well guess this doesn't apply to me since i hav my own toilet... but it still contributes to my argument hhaha.... and if soem like to get up early while others tend to oversleep the early one can wake the lazy/sleepy one up in the morning to get her to go for class, which is highly beneficial to the latter cos lectures are educationally enriching. (this happened to me this morning... what a blessign that shiyun wakes up early and for some weird reason i overslept for the first time this morning but luckily got woken up by shiyun) ok as i type this i realize that i am extremely crappy and nonsensical and not making my point credible at all so i shall just give up. as i briefly browsed through what crap i wrote it seems highly selfish and self centred!!

anwyay i met my roommate laura for the first time this semester just now when going home and it was such a pleasant surprise and it was so nice seeing her again... even though i dun really know her it was just so heartwarming talking to her once again.... =) felt then like inviting her to my place for dinner some day..... yet it's kinda a fleeting thought and i know i would prob never do it.... cos i prob wun get down to doing it..... sigh. i think i always hav many random thoughts that just pass through my mind and i never really try to materialize any of them. if i tried to.. maybe i would hav a lot more things to occupy myself with... plus more goals in life....

just had my econ 119 midterm and i think i did badly so quite upset. but i know that i always worry so much such that everyone thinks that i am exaggerating the extent of how badly i did.... i dunno. i really felt like changing my grading option to p/np since the deadline is this fri..... yet i dun think i should do so cos i enjoy the material being taught in this class and if i take it p/np i know i wun put in as much effort and as such i prob wun learn as much either.... i shall just try harder on my prob sets and try harder for the final i guess =) instead of wallowing in self pity =) and dear huining was really nice to console me though i was being complainy....
this week and next would be super stressful!! tmr i will hav lessons from 8am to 7pm with just maybe 4 half hour breaks.... will be so so tired. and next week i have econ 131 and 182 midterms... hws and jap word quiz on fri... cna't wait for everything to be over! i hope i can be disciplined and study hard this weekend...

tis a bright sunny sat afternoon and washed my rugs and bathroom mats just now... yay now everything is nice and clean =P went to dump rubbish just now and discovered that there was a lemon tree at the backyard area... and i have never noticed it even though i have been living here for nearly 5months! also tried to cook beef ball noodle soup with the ikan bilis my mum sent me and soya beans and soy sauce and it turned out pretty edible. yay! =) i'm so highly 'domesticated'... and gonna cook dinner for the freshies coming for dinner later....
yesterday saw my untainted view of the world crumble... when i realized that people are not as innocent and intentionless as i would like to think them to be..... that things that i tended to believe only happen on tv are in fact very real issues playing out in our lives, but it's just a matter of whether u actively notice it or not... i feel like i am so tian zhen and naive....oh well. perhaps i am still not very exposed to a whole bunch of different ppl out there, which then accounts for my somewhat narrow and 'cloistered' view of the world. or maybe i am aware of these things, just that i choose not to really think about them.
i am beign random.... but am so glad that i have a pot of little white flowers in my room... makes my life 1% more meaningful haha... i feel happy when the buds start opening and flowers start appearing!! though i am nowhere near a good gardener.... i just pour water into the pot everyday.... haha app plants are supposed to filter the air too... so erm i can also console myself that i am now breathing fresher air?! haha. i am being mo ming.