today was a rollercoaster ride... haven't had such an interesting day for some time. went to class somewhat excited, but not really about my lectures but about what i could do after class... strange as it sounds i was looking forward to snipping off my locks, though after having grown my hair for nearly a year i have grown somewhat attached to my not so tidy long hair... but somehow thought it was time for a change... went to the hairdresser along solano to try out and i think i didn't make myself that clear about how i wnated my hair to be cut and the hairdresser had to make amendments at least twice. i wanted her to make my hair 'thinner', to 'shred' it a little cos my hair is so thick and i think she didn't quite get it so after some time she hinted that she had to serve other customers too.. haha felt quite guilty and hair didn't exactly turn out whatever i wanted but it's ok lah.. . for $14 i cannot be that picky. the most amusing thing was that when ziyang came to pick me up at the albany safeway he didn't realize that i cut my hair til after we walked around safeway for around 10 min and i was pretty amused. i thought it was somewhat obvious that my hair was much shorter ;P

did ziyang a misdeed and feel really guilty about it... scratched his beloved car while backing out of a parking lot and though he didn't scold me or anything i'm sure it must have been painful. now i think i better dun take my driving test, cos i seem to be incapable of judging distances accurately and i dun deserve to pass after all.

had an extremely enjoyable time cooking dinner at shiying's place just now... squish the chief cook prepared so many yummy and sophisticated dishes it put my past dishes to shame =P sad thing was the asam fish they cooked was contaminated with the non stick material from the lousy jcpenny pot and as a result we had to dump all the contents away. i didn't cook anything.. was the 'chopper of the day' .. but shiying and i baked chocolate cake and it was surprisingly successful.. discounting the fact that we used a cake mix.. our first try wasn't too bad =P and the funny thing was when we had to 'transport' all our dishes from shiyin'gs place to jacqui's place since we were preparing food for the household and jacqui's parents who were returning to sg tonight... i can never forget our hilarious 3 min ride in the car.... how chester got his tomyum (hmmm i cannot spell..) flavored berms and all the screaming in the car when we were driving up the slope and trying hard to prevent any food from the dishes we were holding from spillling out....
wonder if the rest of our summer will be like that? hope i will still have time for fun things like this in the midst of my weekly hw and readings.. =)

it's only the 3rd day of sch and i am falling asleep in class... kept dozing off in my econ 100b lecture.. aargh. but maybe cos it was a little boring cos it was stuff that i kinda knew.... hopefully i will be able to pay more attention next week...
received my first piece of homework for econ c171 and it looks highly intimidating... it requires some knowledge of excel which i have none... and seems somewhat mathematical, all the graph plotting etc... feel somewhat inadequate now... but i will just try my best and hopefully learn as much as i can from this new class.. somehow though both 171 and 100b are upper div classes, i can somewhat easily tell the difference between the more specialized 171 and 100b.. like 100b still seems to be some introductory course to econ even though it's considered intermediate.
the weather is getting unbearably hot.. for the first time here my weather bug actually registered a record 31C.... hope it doens't go any higher else it would be really irritating cos there's no aircon =P plus the heat makes me drowsy...
i really tried reading my devt econ and macro econ textbooks but somehow i cannot really get anything in. i suspect i am still in holiday mood and nothing seems to go into my brain.
what a highly fragmented entry... wonder if it reflects my state of mind rite now?
shall resolve to do something drastic tomorrow and i hope i dun regret.....

suddenly feel somewhat depressed but can't figure out exactly why. and i'm being so irrational; i have readings to do for my development econs class but i haven't finished them nor have i read my econ 100b textbook. somehow just felt like writing something to soothe my soul.. i think sometimes writing about things is really surprisingly therapeutic.. well in case anyone who reads this thinks i'm really unstable right now pls dun be worried cos i sometimes just get upset for no reason so it's not that unusual.... =P
occasionally i really can't stand myself for being so neutral on everything. like i sometimes feel somewhat opinonless or indecisive and sometimes even though i may feel strongly for something i may not show it in action. and i guess i'm much less opinionated and neutral about matters half the time...which makes me wonder if i just take everything as it is and accept whatever i see or am taught.
c171 seems like a potentially interesting class that will definitely make me aware of third world country conditions. and make me think more about inequality in this world. i seriously hope that i will enjoy this class and learn a lot from it; though i am a little intimidated by the somewhat impressive statuses and "credentials" of some of my classmates; mostly seniors and there are even grad students.... sometimes i think i dun really think about things that i learn on the spot; i tend to absorb everything like a sponge and somehow it's only when i read evreything more thoroughly by myself that i truly digest everything that's taught and gain more from the material; so maybe i 'm a slow learner... and the 'supper' discussion which brought up the numerous A+s that our seniors got made me feel really small.... but then grades aren't everything so i shan't make myself too sad =)
well better get to bed soon if i dun want to end up missing the bus tmr morning and be late for class and end up feeling even more disadvantaged in my econ class... hmm actually i shouldn't feel that inferior.. maybe a more positive attitude might improve my performance =)

school is starting tmr.... and i'll have to get up at 645 or something! =( went for my first church service ever this morning with ziyang sumei jacqui and her parents at their church and it was a pretty interesting experience. when i first stepped into the hall, the first thing that came into mind was somehow that everyone who attended were all pretty young; it was as if i entered a uni lecture hall! and everyone was singing christian songs really enthusiastically... after that came the message by a guest pastor and i thought his message was pretty inspiring and thought-provoking. i suppose why so many people turn up for services regularly is mainly because it allows us to reflect on ourselves... things that we have done, things that we should be doing etc... to learn to better appreciate life, the people around us.... however i am still somewhat unconvinced that 'God' plays a impt part in all these... in that whatever was taught to those present at the service seemed to be applicable to everyone and not just Christians.. i wonder if it is somehow through believing in 'God' that individuals actually have more faith and strength in going about overcoming difficulties, facing the challenges in life, because they believe that whatever happens, someone will be present to watch over them or to ensure that things dun go awry.. In viewing the church as a social group rather than a religious one, i think it is a very cosy and nice community; like how the church celebrated the birthday of one of their members today, thought that was really sweet.. i thought it a little interesting though that in the message something like 'u are most free when u hold on to nothing' or something to that effect, i cannot quite recall exactly.... was something similar to what i penned down in my last entry... guess it's kinda paradoxical, in that sometimes when u really like something or someone u want to hav it/him/her with u all the time but then there comes a point when u overdo it and it results in 'suffocation'... haha dunno what i am talking about.

was happily eating my instant noodles from my hotpot just now in the dining room when i heard some commotion in the doorway and to my 'horror' a party of at least six people, freshmen and seniors combined appeared at my doorstep. it so happens that they hav decided to embark on a house tour and our house happened to be one of their stops. haha good thing my room wasn't in a terrible mess yet else it would have been kinda embarrassing....i had better prepare myself for possible surprise visits else i will get mild heart attacks if large crowds of people suddenly appear at my doorstep =P decided to wash all my new clothes so did laundry just now but to my horror the forgetful me left a packet of tissue in one of my jeans pockets and as a result i now hav bits of tissue all over my clothes!! =( took 15 min to 'dust away' all the tissue bits onto the garage floor and had to use my vacuum cleaner to clear up the remnants of tissue... felt quite silly.... esp when this batch of clothes has my new clothes! =(
hope sch's fine tmr..... =)