3 homeworks and a midterm await me next week. hope the weekend never ends! sigh... cannot really imagine the amount of work i have this weekend... but i choose to slack...prob going to watch pirates of the carribean and play tennis tmr =) shall try to start on saturday... just visited shiying's blog and her revamped website looks really cool.. =) feel a little 'ashamed' of my humble website.. haha but then i'll just keep it this way, well, anyway given my limited comp/web skills i doubt i can advance very far.. so i shall be content with my page for the time being =)
played piano just now and i thought it was really pressurizing to play cos we were given this room with 2 grand pianos, and whatever i played using my piano scores ziyang could play it better without scores!! quite disgusted with my lousy piano skills... am still mesmerized by claire de lune and i haven't advanced a bit in mastering the piece, quite sad. can only listen to experts playing it on my classical piano cd....

happiness is.....?
my econ c171 class seems to provide me with daily bits of random pieces of information and musings ... yesterday i found out that the QWERTY keyboard we use is designed such that u can type the word 'typewriter' using letters on the first line... and that letters are placed such that if using a typewriter, the 'arms' that print the words on the paper wun get 'messed up'... ie. letters that tend to be together in a word are spaced out.. i thought that was quite cool and brainy of those ppl who designed it..
then we were talking about the measure of poverty in class today when someone just felt the urge to give his stand on happiness... that income is usually the best measure of happiness... which i think is definitely not true though... it is probably usually an easy way out, an easy way of measuring happiness, assumed by many to be positively correlated.. but i guess in actual fact there isn't that much of a relationship, though all of us assume that we will be happier when we have more money... our instructor said there was a study which found that people in richer countries aren't that much happier than those in poorer countries.... i think many a time when we have more money we also tend to demand more things so we'll never be satisfied... we are so naturally greedy... well i guess happiness can be derived more from relationships, or just little things in life, gestures by ppl.... haha sometimes grades... (quite sad but so true), food.... cheesecake.... ice cream...
sigh... have to go for econs discussion now... ya forgot... (happiness also =no class... ) ... actually not really lah, cos if i didn't have class i would prob just laze around and do nothing and end up getting upset for doing nothing...and sometimes learning new things do make me really happy =)

went to berkeley marina yesterday to watch the july 4 fireworks. it was pretty nice; haven seen fireworks for some time already.... i especially loved the sparkly and twinkly fireworks.. where sparks of bright spots just lingers in the dark sky... so beautiful. caught one heart-shaped one and a few star shaped ones too. but no smiley faced ones though. i drove for about 45 min on the highway yesterday to the vacaville factory outlets and though i wasn't exactly very good on the highway and drifted occasionally i feel somehow proud of myself.. haha. my cheap thrill?

went to ranch 99 just now to get some groceries for the week and had two mini incidents that kinda made my day. was wheeling my cart into the supermarket and i left my economist and my wallet in it.. then was distracted by cantaloupes and somehow when i turned back my cart disappeared and it really freaked me out cos my wallet was in there! but it so turns out that this blur lady actually wheeled the wrong cart and after walking around a little in the supermart i managed to see her waving my wallet in the air looking somehwhat lost.. she apologized profusely to me for having caused the little commotion... and even confided in me how the day before she forgot to take $300 cash from the ATM machine and the guy after her came after her to return her the money... well i'm glad that there are really nice and honest people around still =)
and when i was walking along one of the isles, this little girl sitting in a cart just looked at me so innocently and gave me a really sweet smile... she was really pretty with big shiny eyes that made me melt... hmm that sounds wrong. but anyway she was just so cute and friendly and i can't help but feel a loss... of innocence... like after we grow up we can no longer do whatever we want.... in a way. like ppl would probably think i am mad if i go round smiling at them... kids are so endearing and unscheming and sometimes their candidness and 'non-retention' of any secret emotions make them so lovable...reminds me of once when i went for my krayola meeting and i was talking to one of the kids and i guess i just ate some sandwich and she unabashedly said "u smell like onions".. haha i was a little embarrassed but then amused too....

sometimes i wish i judged myself less. like i often think i dun deserve a lot of things. or am unworthy of things... and i think i'm also alwyas afraid of being judged by others... that they would think something bad of me... haha no wonder i am getting more white hair =P