PLS DUN READ THIS... serious.
i just needed some place to complain..... i feel so stressed and it's all my own fault.. for not managing my time well and always choosing to do frivolous things over proper work... and i just feel so mediocre at everything i try. =( am zipping off to europe in may/june but though i really look forward to this break... and it's really really nice that my frens are gonna come from sg to visit me, but i fear that i will be so stressed that i wun enjoy their stay as well... though i REALLY reaLly want to spend quality time wiht them... =( how... and i didn't take my econ 140 midterm and my finals is gonna weigh very very heavily.... and i dun hav the capacity and tenacity and perseverence and discipline and whatever to really fight on i fear.... feel veyr horrible. =(

am distracted from work once again... thinking senseless things i shouldn't be! aargh. i feel like saying something but i fear the consequences. but bottling everything up isn't helping either. aargh why is this happening to me
(one hour later) hmmm but just talked to ting and suddenly feel ok.... i'm such a temperamental creature!! maybe all of us are but none of us really show it.... aiyah i dun think i am ok but i'm not so 'stressed' now i guess.... love ICQ.. haha ok i am going mad. maybe i will go to safeway later and try to make mango cream for springfest.... and see how it turns out. sigh i am so undisciplined.... never use time to finish the loads of work i have. and i think if i actaullly conscienctiously read my japanese chapters every week before class, i would be so much better at it. i just complain and never carry out my resolutions.