Saturday, June 14, 2003

reached jing's aunt's place yest night... and we went to paramount's great america just now.. now all my brain cells are dead from so much shock and pressure from roller coaster rides.. think paramount great america is better than the santa cruz boardwalk.. more thrilling rollercoaster rides... and we managed to get discounted tickets from the santa clara chamber of commerce, 25.99 instead of the usual 45.99 so we saved quite a bit. i loved the ride which makes u fly.. or rather, creates the feeling that u are flying.. when they just spin u round and round up in the sky. feel so liberated, with legs dangling in the air.. they also had the usual funfair stores with soft toys.. and i passed by this stall with sesame street characters soft toys.. and i really wanted the elmo badly.. but i spent at least 5 bucks trying to play the game (make sure the ball remains in the dip, think those who went circus circus at reno would know) but none of the balls remained and i had to go home empty handed. so sad =(. even a big bird or cookie monster or even ernie would have made me happy.. sigh. somehow i seemed to have gradually developed a greater desire for soft toys since i came here. maybe it's because i'm away from my family and soft toys just give me a warm and cosy feeling. oh well, guess sometiems the things u really want u never get. but things u dun really want come so easily i really dun understand why we have to be tortured like that.

jing's aunt is really nice and talented.. she has a nice grand piano in one of her rooms, a keyboard by the computer and many interesting paintings and music-related items.. have also been fed really well, what with thai food for lunch and korean barbeque beef for dinner... going to get really fat when i get back to berkeley.. aargh! =( plus loads of yummy cherries and green grapes and blueberries from the fridge... going to monterey to see the aquarium and maybe the beach tomorrow.. hope it will be fun too =P but will have to get up super early say 7 something am.... cos tmr's saturday so monterey would probably be really crowded. considering that i have been sleeping at nearly 2 am and waking up on average at 10 am i really wonder if i can wake up tomorrow.. =P plus during summer i will have 8 am classes every single day.. will hav to run to take 52L.. i better start 'practising'...

Thursday, June 12, 2003

nothing much to do today but i copied loads of driving directions from the internet such that if jing gets her car we can drive to diff places the next few days. feel a little useless cos jing has so many things to pack and yet i cannot really help her. jing's sister is in her room and when i went back to the room just now they were calling their parents and somehow it made me miss my sister.. somehow i felt like i wanted my sister to be here too... it's very nan shou to miss someone. maybe i am so not occupied that i start to hu si luan xiang. sometiems feel really temperamental.. like yest i just said i felt so happy being here and all and today i somehow wish my family were here with me.. to just be with me. jing was playing marriage d'amour or dunno how u spell it by richard clayderman and somehow it just created a very qi liang atmosphere that made me feel like crying! dunno what's wrong with me... am so unstable sometimes. maybe it's cos i dun have much to do, then like think about everything.. anyhow think about sad things too. jeann said she might visit me.. that would be really fun... but then again it's not that cheap.. .so maybe not.. and huijun said she might visit me too!! yay.. hope someone visits me during summer sch.. though i will hav sch it would be nice meeting up with old frens and catching up.. to just hav someone u can just feel really comfortable with and be yourself....
yest went with joel wenzheng jing and her sis to korean house to have dinner and joel was talking about types of girls that would 'sa jiao' and said that i was more serious and probably wun sa jiao to my bf if i had one... haha i dunno if i will. but then i feel that sometimes there is a need to sa jiao.. not just in relationships but in general.. family/ frens... like sometimes people just need to feel loved or like feel recognized by their frens and families...

Wednesday, June 11, 2003

hav run out of things to do at the yellow resort... =P but am not complaining though cos i dun really hav anything in particular i hav to do anyway...and would probably hav bummed around at home had i stayed in berkeley.. finally watched crouching tiger hidden dragon yesterday on jing's laptop, thanks to the green library... was pretty good but cannot really understand how it managed to get itself nominated for so many academy awards... and michelle yeoh and sometimes chow yun fatt's chinese occasionally sent the two of us into peals of laughter... cos they just sounded so odd at times. well not that i can speak chinese really fluently, but it's just somewhat amusing.. the strange pronunciation sometimes. then attempted to watch another chinese movie titled 'yi yi' but then we were unsuccessful and got really sleepy halfway so decided to turn in...

i think i still prefer berkeley... though the campus is so much smaller i kind of like the compactness and the proximity of all the buildings. it's a lot more convenient and nice to have a campus u can just walk around in. feels less distant too... and also the luxury of having chinese food and other restaurants and shops just a street away from the main campus, bart station and SF just about 30 min BART ride away... also felt that jing's dorm is pretty different from mine; think every dorm has their own dining hall, and there's like so much less students in a single dorm, as compared to the units... her dorm is also much quieter, unlike mine, where there will never be a day when no one comes into my room to talk to my roommates.. somehow i think i have gotten so used to that that i have grown to like that somehow... though i am always AS and hardly ever talk to the people who come into my room. i dun really understand why too.. maybe i am a little strange. like i think i would never have expected myself so comfortable and enjoying my life in berkeley one year ago, when i was all ready to go to SMU to study econs... everything just seems like a dream sometimes. i must say that i REALLY wanted to go home when i first stepped into my dorm room like 10 months ago and thought is this where i will be staying for the rest of the year? not knowing anyone and not knowing what lay ahead of me?? but everything has turned out pretty ok and i'm really glad i made the decision to come here... though i still always feel that everyone around me is so much better and zai-er...

feel like going to hawaii after summer sch! but it's expensive though... =(

Tuesday, June 10, 2003

aargh. there is NO ONE....
stanford feels like a holiday resort. the sprawling campus, the rows of palm trees, cars cruising slowly along the roads, the plentiful dorm housing that looks like pseudo chalets all contribute to this impression... everything is so spread out too.... and they even have their own golf course and i saw horses while on my way to the tennis courts! haha. all the buildings aren't that pretty though.. all yellow.. unlike places like yale with such awesome buildings. it feels really comfortable with jing driving me around to go places, with no time constraints once again and just doing what we feel like doing. had brunch at one of the dorms; by far i think it's the most similar to super dc food... only had one meal here so i cannot really tell the standard of the food here i guess. then went to stanford shopping centre to shop and had dinner at the cupertino ranch and went shopping at ranch too. bought some food for cooking and the piggy me finished one box of egg roll when i came back to jing's room. while waiting to go the green library to borrow dvds. apparently stanford has a huge collection of dvds, with fairly recent titles; we borrowed catch me if u can and road to perdition... i wonder if bereklely stocks dvds too... they probably do, just that i never bothered to check them out..

night cycling was a totally refreshing experience. especially since i haven't been cycling for such a long time... now i totally understand why jing says people have to get bikes, cos the campus is just so spread out that it is scarcely possible to run for classes if u wake up late. now i dun really get the point of cycling on UC campus cos it seems so tiny by comparison. Cycling is really relaxing, and at night it's nice in a way cos there's hardly anyone and though i's a little cold when the wind blows in ur face, it's really enjoyable. feel like getting a bike to cycle to school, but then again it probably isn't that advisable to cycle along San Pablo with all the pollution and by the time i get to sch i'd probably be too tired to concentrate on classes..

Sunday, June 08, 2003

it so turns out that no one can see pics on my blog.. sigh. big failure yet was so contented for nothing...
shall try again some other time..

hmmm if anyone is free enough, u can try right clicking on the photos and click show picture... it worked on my comp.. =P