am getting hopelessly fat!!! cos for the past few days i have just been eating and eating... meeting ppl for the sole purpose of eating ha. and have been ingesting a lot of unhealthy food. like bowl of huge mango ice kachang thing in one afternoon after a whole seafood platter at fish and co like 3 hrs before, then dinner plus dessert at crystal jade...
sigh so much stuff to pack... so many things to settle... and no time cos i keep going out... feel terribly disorganized but not really motivated to do all the things i hav to do...

one week left in sg; depressing thoughts of leaving and not coming back for a long time are starting to set in.... it's not that i dun look forward to starting sch again in berkeley; but have grown a little accustomed to my relatively stress-free and cheap-food-available-everywhere type of 'lifestyle' here.... plus have been a spoilt child for the past two months, with mum doing laundry and religiously and voluntarily preparing breakfast for me every morning... now it wil be back to days of getting troubled over what to cook for dinner everyday; resorting to cereal meals when i am lazy, having to fend for myself and taking care of every aspect of my life again.. haha not that it's that undesirable lah. just a lil tiring at times. but good for me in general. who will fend for me next time if i myself dun? =)
spent 3 hours carving a tiny linoleum block on sat evening after discovering that i had supplies of lino blocks and block paint hidden in my cupboard and that half of them have spoilt or expired after two years of lying in the cupboard... and yest morning created 10 prints of the same thing and felt immensely accomplished.....ha! sigh. sometimes i think that i dun like art that much anymore, but when i do it again i feel that my love for it never really did diminish. but the prob with me i guess is that i like art but i am not like super good at it. like i always dream of all these things i want to draw.... but i can never draw them as well and as realistically as all those artists out there and therein lies my dilemma... and it will take a long long time for me to come up with something good then sometiems halfway through i get a bit put off cos it really takes up so so much time!! and then when i am schooling i can never hav the luxury of hours and hours just working on a small piece of linoleum block and coming up wiht a decent design.... haha so i guess it will for the moment still remain as a retirement leisure activity... =P