suffering from a little bit of sleep deficit... stayed up till 2am trying to do my econ 119 hw as well as study for my second written jap quiz this morning... am somewhat disgusted with my slow speed in doing all my prob sets. =( but i can't help it though... i just take some time to get things i think. like i think most ppl only started on the prob sets like last night, whereas i started like long ago, slowly pondering over each question without much results though haha. then in the end had to rush last night....
attempted to be more intellectual so decided to go listen to paul krugman talk about war in iraq and impact on economy (or something along this line i think) at haas business sch, but unfortunately the response was overwhelming and as such i was rejected at the door... haha but also cos there was such a long line i didn't bother to queue up till the line had shortened considerably....
my PEIS midterm is coming up in about a week's time and i dun think i understand all the concepts all that well, def not well enough to churn out a proper essay about the political economy.... and it doens't help that my GSI is more of a pretty face than an effective tutor... and though he is nice and tries to teach but it just isn't very effective in getting me to understnad things. and maybe it's also cos i dun think about things and how the class material and theories relate to real life deeply enough. aargh. i hope i hav enough motivation to do something about it, else my grades would suffer
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lets practise jap with a self dialogue......
shu matsu, nani o shi masu ka?? (weekend, what are u going to do?)
watashi wa benkyo suru tsu mo ri desu (i intend to study...)
haha sad rite =P

talked to my mum two nights' ago and she happened to tell me her shocking discovery-- that one of the students murdered in Sydney couple of weeks ago turned out to be the son of our 'old' neighbour, back in the days when we still lived in Tampines... and somehow she felt all the more sorry, because she actually knew the guy who so unfortunately perished innocently. apparently he was sec four when i was in p-school, and we went into their apartment pretty often then... but i cannot remb anything at all though. but the information offered to me by my mum just made the whole incident seem a lot more real somehow.... it also made her more paranoid, resulting in her and sometimes my dad calling me and telling me not to go home too late at night... and not to move around alone unnecessarily...
watched jay chou's vcd that came with the cd album... and they were showing how he had to act in the mtv... and evidently he wasn't a very good actor... and something he said was quite true!! how hard it is to act like u are so shu2 with someone when in fact u actually aren't!! and yet u hav to get intimate with people u dun even understand nor feel any affection for (he was in rome i think and one scene had to make him hug some italian babe and he was like quite emotionless and not passionate enough resulting in many many takes with naughty comments alongside remarking how lousy his acting was)......... but i thought it so true, what he said. like actors can just imagine things so easily.... and DARE to do them too. i think i can NEVER ever do that.. haha... i tend to think twice even with people i know well, like i guess it's hard for me to openly show affections cos i think i am sometimes even scared to tell ppl things in the face..... amazing how many different types of people there are in this world......ok random comment. shall prepare to go to sch....

searched unsuccessfully last night for cheap tics back to sg... spent at least 2 hours on various online travel sites but all these searches gave me quotes of about a thousand bucks for round trip tickets.... =( sigh..... why is it even more expensive to go home this dec... last dec wasn't this bad even... but regardless of ticket prices, i will still fly home i guess... just hope that i am lucky enough to get a cheap deal. or rather, have the perseverance to continue searching for good deals... cooked too much fried rice for myself yest night and i think i'd have to have fried rice for lunch and dinner today.. realize the cooking seems to be what i talk about most of the time, such that 144 hours gave a rather accurate 'insight' about my blog morphing into a food journal or something? haha. maybe its cos that's all i do... eat.. sleep.. study.... called my mum to complain to her the fact that the bottle of dried scallops she sent to me somehow grew mouldy for no good reason!! quite upset cos i have only used a few scallops once. what a waste of money... realized to my horror yest also that oyster sauce had mould on the underside of the bottle cap too!! i had better start putting sauces into my fridge... or maybe it's cos the weather these days isn't all that cold and it should be fine since summer is ending now....