Upset.

This afternoon I had a most unexpected break down at work, in the middle of narrating what pissed me off so much. I wasn't ANGRY ANGRY, but maybe madder than I realised. And so overwhelmed and 激动 that I had to just let it all out. Surprisingly for once, I felt really strongly abt something :P Though I couldn't do anything for half an hour or so after that, I supposed it purged some of my negativity and frustration.

Life is SAD for now :( But i suppose it should get better. Though not much in the near future...

And oh yeah, I hate ppl who tell you "We're in this tog" when it's just hypocritical lip service. Why utter such sugary things when you dun even mean it.

I've never felt so short-fused and frustrated in a very long time, but some silly things just make you want to pull hair and give up. And dun understand why ratio of grassroots attendees VS HDB attendees at a meeting matters so much. If ppl cannot make it so be it, why need to try so hard to match numbers, restrict ppl going just so that other ppl are not 'outnumbered'?! Dun see how number of attendees is that critical/gg to affect whether our msg gets thru or not such that we must waste time scrambling to reduce ppl from internal depts... I suppose when you're in foul mood, even tiniest of things can ignite huge fires :P I also hate ppl who make me do extra work in collation by not giving me inputs in requested format. HMPH!

That said, I suppose I still need to count my blessings. That always come in the form of comforting support in a few esp fabulous colleagues, frequently willing to go all out to help me. Esp for menial things I dun like to do and am very bad at doing.

I have two crazy weeks ahead and the little evil signs of stress/ long working hours have very unfortunately started manifesting themselves on my poor face... If I emerge un-disfigured, un-sick and mentally sound near end of month I shall be one happy creature. I shall console myself with the fact that most things, be they good or bad, will eventually pass. (Of course, when good things do happen, I will pretend not to remember what I just said :P)