feel that i am recently more prone to verbal abuse... which makes me wonder about myself sometimes. like when ppl say things about u, which are probably more frivolous and thus shoudlnt be taken too seriously..... but though u know it prob isn't true u still suspect if ther'es something wrong with urself. that's the bad thing about worrying too much and being too pessimistic. watched kiki's delivery service just now and thought it was pretty funny and entertaining =) though anime is sometimes more intended for the younger audience, it never fails to appeal to me..... haha i sometimes really think i'm quite kiddish. and anyone who comes into my room might easily mistake it for a little girl's room =P
sometiems i really wonder why u just happen to meet certain ppl. like so coincidental. like on tues was walking towards sproul and just happened to see chester. then few seconds later i heard shiying calling my name... then less than 10 seconds later i saw tim and chunyan. all along the same stretch of road consecutively. but i doubt any of them realized they were in such close proximity to one another. how interesting =P then today on campus i was walking home when i all of a sudden realized i was walking behind shiying and baolin... and i really didn't realize it! and when shiying asked me how long i hav been 'tailing' her i realized that i was actually quite blind haha. then was walking along university ave and met chester; i thought it was quite coincidental how on both days i kinda saw shiying and chester, both like within minutes....
bought 'radish cake' from ranch today and attempted to replicate fried carrot cake but apparently i wasn't too successful cos i was told by my housemate not to tell him when i next cook the dish. haha oh well. i admit that it didn't taste that great.... but it wasn't that bad either? my attempts in searching for a cheap ticket to chicago during the one week summer break before fall sem starts hav been somewhat futile... can't find any tic below 280! =( looks like i prob wun be able to see shu... =( shall try to psycho her to go somewhere else if that should happen... =)

yay midterm over!! =) dunno how i'll do though but shall not care for the time being =) bummed the whole afternoon away but dun feel guilty at all. my poster arrived in the mail today and somehow i cannot believe myself for having spent 14 bucks on a piece of paper..... i think i was too chong dong and just clicked and just bought it!! =( the poster is really sweet though. though not suitable for me actually. now i kinda regret.. sigh. one of the disadvantages (supposedly also advantage) of online shopping is that it's too convenient... esp when u are equipped with a credit card... with online accounts everywehre at online stores.... not that i hav many... but it's just so much easier to buy things on impulse. cooked a salty meal just now; think oyster sauce is one of the most brilliant inventions! haha u can use it on anything and it will taste fine. cooked oyster and soy sauce chicken, which turned out a little too salty but edible nonetheless =) i htink i am becoming better at anyhow whipping up dishes and mixing everything together.....

shall just type something short before my intended 'hibernation' at the library to study for econ 100b midterm later till dinnertime... and hopefully that can salvage my terrible state of knowledge of macroecons.... =) it's strange how i usually get and remain confused about the stuff i learn.. till like the last minute, when i seriously study for them.... though of course sometimes i remain confused... but usually i can clear up some stuff... and econ 100b esp bad for me, cos due to my slackness in my hws i have gotten 2 checks already and i suspect the most recent one i will get a check minus!! =( ya so better study hard for midterm.
52L came so late today and i was late for class... and when i stepped in to the lecture hall the instructor stopped and i thought everyone just stared at me.. =( oh no.. so terrible.. i had better get up earlier to take the 730 bus from now on.... sometimes when u are stuck at the bench and bus stop waiting for the bus stop u just can't hlep but wish there were taxis sometimes... and talking about taxis i think i was quite terrible yesterday.. sigh impose on ppl. negative externalities of my actions. sigh. ok shall go and study.... can't wait for midterm to be over tmr..... then can do more fun stuff again.. =)

cannot believe that i actually stayed up all night watching dvd and did nothing all of yesterday though i have a midterm for econ 100b next wed!! =( oh well.... nmind. but i had fun yesterday =) though it was like a domestic-chore day. had our routine outing to ranch to shop for groceries but an unprecedented way of getting there! which made me realize how unhealthy i was... constantly lagging behind shiyun, full of stamina and jogged without stopping to ranch... then bought groceries and a new pan at ROSS since our old pan finally 'gave way'.... yup and cooked dinner at our place, shiying cooked kailan with carrots, ziyang his combination egg, chester his not-on-purpose peppery but still savoury chicken stew and my experiment soy-sauce fried fish fillets which turned out pretty ok.... thank goodness =P it was a nice dinner, considering how all of us haven't exactly been eating together for some time, as everyone's usually busy during the week and thus confined to their individual households...
after dinner activity was so singaporean! haha we watched star search and the new chinese tcs serial love is beautiful on ziyang's laptop... which resulted in the three of us staying up all night.... meaning minus the same person who concussed when watching hao er hao nu =P it's really scary how human greed can lead to people doing such revolting things, ruthlessly hurting people..... and also how just greed can dictate how people treat one another.... like how all the kids sucked up to the 'dad' when he was in possession of a piece of valuable land....
oh well i think i better start work soon... but considering how i think i'm bothered by some stuff i hope my productivity isn't that low.... but knowing myself i'm always kinda distracted so i shan't be too optimistic... must at least finish my homework today! =)