stayed in for the most part of today, inefficiently typing two things which took up most of my time today. it's a little random, but if my application gets through, i will have the chance of being paid a small stipend to survey the streets of El Cerrito in the days after i return haha. speaking of which, i feel time really flies cos i would be back in Berkeley in a mere 5-6 weeks. feel rather nervous about my research paper; first draft due in less than 2 weeks and i have no definite idea what i am going to put in it. also feel very uncertain about my housing situation next year. sigh. dunno whether to save money and get a room in a house or to splurge and get a studio? whether to live near sch or live far away? i can't decide what i want yet. doen'st help that it's impossible to look for housing in the west coast when you are in the east coast. but guess i still have time...

two days ago i was freaked out by trespassers commenting on my blog and not knowing what was being said, which reminded me how i'll never know who visits unless they leave traces... today i am annoyed with ppl who persist in declaring themselves something they are not...i thought of practising censorship on my tagboard cos technically i can, but then again what's the point of a tag-board if i want to censor everything ppl choose to put on it and limit their freedom of speech.... so.. ya. i've decided to keep my tagboard comments intact. grudgingly though haha.
indulged in sinful treats yest evening... cooked pasta with portabello mushrooms in creamy sun dried tomato alfredo sauce... and had sara lee cheesecake with haagen daaz mac brit ice cream. then snacked on cheetos and m&ms while watching movies... prob gained a few pounds, which i would hav to work hard to shed over the next few weeks... but it felt good eating such rich food since i have been trying hard to abstain from ice cream... =)
i realized that i can actually take Art 8 with PEIS in summer, but that would mean 16 hours of art per week! and full-time studying all summer. i wonder if i am up to it still. i used to only hav 4 hours of art a week one afternoon after sch when i was taking O level art in RGS... but who knows? it may rekindle my love for art. my desire to do artsy stuff again... these two days i dunno why i cannot really sleep. i keep getting up early in the morning. =( but i know it's not cos i hav a visitor.. =(

looking at apartments on craigslist suddenly made me miss my old room... i miss all my pillows, my comfy full bed and soft comforter.. my huge carebear, doggie and other soft toys (or 'stuffed animals', my roommate would try to tell me...) i miss my car too... and i'm so afraid i wun be able to drive properly after i get back... guess it's good i'll end about 2 weeks earlier. leaves time for house-hunting, settling down and catching up with ppl before everyone is gone =(

day 2 and the last day of my hermit existence... finished A Clockwork Orange this afternoon! it's kinda dark and violent, but a very good read nonetheless...because of its themes.. and as i progressed i also gradually began to understand the narrator's invented slang in the book and started enjoying it more and more. i mean it's somehwat creative, to call eyes glazzies isn't it? apparently Kubrick made it into a film but i can just imagine all the graphic violence and all. so it's a no-no... and then i headed to H&M for a shopping spree... wanted to get groceries from Chinatown, but ended up going into Urban Outfitters and chanced upon this pair of pants with a belt i really liked and then thus splurged... still ex despite being on sale =( it was the only pair left and it's like fitting so i have to work veyr hard not to get any fatter for the rest of the sem at least... hunted down the second Teaism in Penn Quarter and discovered that they sell more stuff than the one at Dupont Circle! but too inaccessible... i also prefer the ambience at the Dupont Teaism... their salty oat cookies are really yummy! they def taste better than they sound =P

today.... i finished half the apple cake i baked yesterday. walked to adams morgan to see what's there... bought three books for the price of two at Borders... started reading A Clockwork Orange by Antony Burgess...found reasonably priced decent sushi at Whole Foods and rented Farewell to my Concubine (Ba Wang Bie Ji) starring Leslie Cheung and Gong Li from blockbuster...excited! shall watch it later =P yes, i feel "phonily-cultured" today... i haven't purchased any book to read for leisure for a long time.. yay. i can go try all the sushi at Whole Foods for the rest of the sem. i wonder why i have turned into such a sushi fan this sem? it's actually good that i kinda hav a day or two to myself.. i feel so sad that i haven't been keeping up with my reading. i remb in RGS/JC i really read a lot a lot of novels.. or least i really tried to. guess it was good that i alwyas had like one-hour return trips all the way back to the East... hopefully i'll get into the habit of reading again this spring break.. or least a day or two before jing comes ;)