i suddenly feel a little spoilt in my new house... like i suddenly hav like my daddy with me kinda thing haha. i wonder if it will eventually evolve into a veyr 'family' kinda feel... =) haoren cooked dinner for us yesterday and it was surprisingly sumptuous, complete with salmon teriyaki, fried snow peas with carrots and vegetarian abalone and stir fried beef with ginger.... then xiaotian happened to be in sch when i ended my washington dc info session and asked if i wanted a lift home... then i just hopped off 52L and took his car instead... i dunno. i am really not used to my house being so warm and like 'lively'... well i mean of course this is a good thing, but i feel strange.. like things are so so different! for one, i would never have expected a hot dinner waiting for me at home, not since my mum came over the start of this year and prepared dinner almost every other day.... and one amusing thing was that everyone was watching tennis on tv.. then suddenly they xin xue lai chao and like ok let's go play tennis now (when we finished dinner just 5 min ago)... and then in like 20 min or whole house trooped off to get tennis balls and a racquet... but sadly even after 2 hours of circling the neighborhood and sch we failed to find an empty court... but i dunno. i just felt like things bothering me just went to the back of my mind for that evening... i wonder what i should do actually... sometiems i really feel that i hold on too tightly to certain things that i ought to let go of... but i choose to not let go... and make myself really miserable...dunno. perhaps sometimes when u let go, things naturally come back to u or resume its normal course without u even getting depressed over it constantly.. perhaps i should really make an effort to get to know my housemates better, cos they are really quite a nice bunch of ppl.. but dunno.... confused.