days leading to finals has seen me cooking somewhat gross dinners.... ok not gross, but dinners that i think only i will eat (cos i cooked it so i have to eat it... ) eg. in an attempt to clear out my diff types of leftover portions of instnat noodles i mixed jap somen and instant noodles all together and boiled them and then mixed them with ketchup and chilli sauce... and added boiled vege and fish.... sounds really gross rite. but that is what happens when u have a weird selection of food left at home, no time, + too lazy to use the frying pan.
finals also saw me being almost totally isolated from ppl... and i've managed to be more disciplined and not remain perpetually online, and get distracted by the fact that i am online (it affects me though no one msgs me or anything)... and like though all i do is study all day (practically, most of the time...) i feel happy... like yest i went through many PEIS articles and learnt about the Asian Financial Crisis and somehow i just felt that i was acutally learning a lot.... though i mean i guess i was just reading about it and in actual fact do not have a very deep understanding of it.. but still... i felt good.... guess this should be the 'spirit' of studyign and learning.... to be motivated by what u can learn, and not perpetually worry about getting bad grades... like i keep telling myself to just do my best now, and even if i dun do as well as i want to, i hope i wun be too upset =)

just 3 min of blogging before i go offline to study..... took bus back just now as usual, but not as usual i was actually talking to someone and that someone voluntarily talked to me.... and after 5 seconds i realized my mistake cos she then plonked herself in the empty seat beside me and kept talking to me... till the bus reached san pablo.... i couldn't help but feel a little scared cos she seemed a little not-very-right in the mind, saying how bus drivers are crazy... how she hates the smell of meat loaves..... asked me what i was studying and upon discovering it to be economics praised the money making opportunities upon graduation, alongside business ad.... that i should work in SF instead of Oakalnd... and when she asked me who i lived with i said 'two housemates' and she heard 2 husbands and started laughing loudly and claiming that i was weird and practised bigamy?!! was totally embarrassed but i couldn't tell her to go away for fear of offending her and hurting her as well... so i just entertianed her for the rest of her bus trip..... what a bizarre incident....
was pretty productive and did a bit of studying today, but i still have so much so much to study.. esp when i have so many articles for PEIS to summarize... and only like summarized 4 articles amongst like at least 20?? ok shall get backto work.... =)