1 "revelation" (that i can identify with) and 2 compliments (for me!)

we were just talking about epsilons and error terms in class and as usual, it created opportunity for digression. and so kc was making jokes about frats before revealing that actually he was in one too... and thinking back about things he did... said something to the effect of "things you thought were ok when you were 18 are really not so ok as you age"... i dunno i think it's so true. how as you age your perceptions of things change... i don't think you even need 10 (or more) yrs... even 3 yrs is enough...ok. maybe wisdom does not necessarily come with age. but guess many things change over time. your mindset? though some things really dun. aargh. ha ok dunno what's my point. =P
we also got back our history response papers today and i felt really happy that my GSI actually said to me, "I really enjoyed reading your paper, it was very well-written".... u know, seriously, now that i look back on all the papers i've written over the past 3 yrs... i can't even count how many crappy ones i wrote. ok not that this one's perfect or extremely outstanding or anything, but at least upon completion i felt that at least i think i'm 'getting there'... i wasn't sure if it was a well-written one cos i still had some questions and doubts, but at least i felt that i was kind of thoughtful and slightly clearer than before...
then today i bumped into one Chinese class classmate bout 2 hours after class and he said, "i think you have some talent in photography".... that was really encouraging...i know that i still cannot take very good pictures but i'm definitely motivated to improve further =) i hope i'm not being very egoistic blogging about these tiny compliments i got today... it just makes me childishly happy when ppl have positive comments to make... =P
and faintly connected to these incidents-- i have very recently started toying with the idea of incorporating images into my thesis cos after all i still dun hav anything very focused... i was looking for books in the lib when i chanced upon this book on Chinese propaganda posters in the 20th century.... they were just very fascinating and intriguing.... i'm thinking.. i can take a totally different angle in looking at state and society relationships, via analyzing these images... and it would be something really close to my heart too, cos incorporating art and politics/history would be really quite fun for me (i think)

ok no more happy stuff to share. i will have a scary moment tmr, cos i committed myself to explaining in person to prof who misunderstood me that time by signing up for his office hours tmr... cos he didn't reply to my email...though i really do fear having to deal with a situation like this, i also know that it really wun do me any harm to explain to him in person... just need some courage i guess. i'm quite useless, still bit nervous though i didn't do any kui xin shi. but i also figured that i was also in the wrong and it's actually not very unreasonable of him to come to the conclusion he came to. if it really turns out that after that he still chooses to think ill of me, at least i know that it's not worth getting upset over this anymore. =)