had lunch with elaine and it was really nice seeing her again after so long... =) ever since i moved out of the dorms i never really talked much to her... well actulaly i think after i moved out of the dorms i hardly kept in touch with any of my dorm mates at all. quite sad, well but then again even if i do see them ti's just a casual hi and we dun really hav that much in common to talk about either.... one day i shall try to cook for elaine! =) though i dun really know her that well, yet i feel very comfortable talking to her somehow.
these days i feel increasingly kong xu, that my life is really dry... i think i study too much... or rather i think about work and hardly do any other extra curricular stuff. so i think i'll do participate in krayola again this sem and hopefully do something meaningful for the kids by teaching them art and craft... and i have also neglected things that i was once interested in, such as sign language.... i guess the sad thing is that once u stop doing something, u are not likely to pick it up again unless someone comes along and has the same interest and both of u decide to do things together.... like i think i need to be more active... instead of waiting passively for things to happen. eg. i think it's usually jacqui who asks me if i want to bake, ppl asking me if i want to go for lunch; i think i seldom take the initiative to ask ppl to do things with me..... esp here. dunno why too... maybe i'm just afraid of rejections.... so much so that it prevents me from even trying. that's bad. it shall be my resolution of the week, to be more involved in my own life.. hmm ok sounds weird..... sigh but i always resolve to do things but never really follow through or realize any of my goals... =P