Sunday, December 25, 2005

it really feels very comfortable road-tripping with 'old frens'; and once again i got verbally abused by the two guys, for various reasons. well i guess it wasn't totally unreasonble to be picked on those things that i was picked on for, but i'm totally defenceless when these two join forces. i get mad; but it's a kind of will-forget-about-it-after-15min kind of mad; cos i wonder when we would ever do road trips again; or just be all together in the same place again; considering how each of us would prob be doing his/her own thing after we graduate...

these past two days i was also reminded of various things i ought to bear in mind; particular areas i'm so inadequate in and certainly should seek to make improvements to; how weak-willed i am; how when it comes to academic learning i almost always experience some kind of memory loss; how i'm so inferior in so many many aspects. and i'm also reminded of how i am really nowhere near what i might want to do in the distant future; nor am making any real effort to move towards that direction... also dun exactly know how being aware of these will really help. but hopefully i'll feel lousy enough to work on these problem areas and make the most of my last sem.

PS: i can finally eat normal food! and face is no longer very bloated =P but i have patches of blue black on both sides of my jawline.....

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Miss Min

I think you can do whatever you put your mind to do. It will help to remember what you want to achieve but no need to dwell on your "weaknesses" and "inferior areas" if it simply makes you feel bad! Don't forget your positive aspects (of which there are many). I wish you were around in person so I could talk to you about stuff like this! :)

Mints. said...

haha you sound like you're counselling your lil sis =P (like i can imagine you doing) aiyah i just realize there are a lot of things i can improve on; it might make me a lil upset but i think it's better to acknowledge them than to pretend that everything's good.. i mean it just gets to me... but i'm not like seriously depressed because of them...