i think i am never really good at dealing with awkward situations... when someone close to u becomes even more distant than people u have just met, it just feels wrong. but i guess some things will improve with time? sigh i really dunno...=(
bought a little table from ikea today. wanted a swiveling chair but then sadly they were out of stock... now my room is actually quite qi2 quan2 but actually on the verge of getting too cluttered... i actually feel like i am starting to overdo things. like walls are covered with too many pictures... adding too many things to my room.... dunno perhaps it subconsciously reflects my hope/desire to really belong to this room... and hopefully to this house. hopefully today, with 3 diff ppl cooped up in their own rooms almost all day, with nearly zero interaction, won't be characteristic of what is to come this sem...