Upset-ness has more or less subsided over weekend... Am trying to practise self-psychoing. Though you dread doing certain things, sometimes still have to do what, else dun do everything snowball even worse? Just have to grit my teeth and cut down all the irritating thorns standing btwn me and my travel-holiday sometime early next year...! Though can get hurt, get pricked... if I dun even attempt to cut then i'll never reach my reward right... sit in front of huge thorn forest to cry is not going to help (I suppose can allow myself to weep a bit, but weep finish must do work). Wait for valiant knight to cut down all my thorns also dunno must wait how long..... One must always learn to be self-reliant :) Besides, I have all the kind "aunties" in my unit always ready to lend me a hand... I need to be stronger! Ganbatte! (to myself :P)